20th September 2010
A ‘forever home’. What does that mean exactly? And should I be at peace with the fact that Jemima lived in hers right up to the end? Or does knowing that someday we will move to another house devalue that fact and perhaps make disconnecting emotionally from Jam Pot Cottage a very difficult affair? Will this also mean Jemimas spirit may get left behind or was I her home in the same way as she was mine? I had made the decision way back that I would keep her ashes and not spread them – that her remains would become mine but that’s just the physical world. And what if Jam Pot Cottage should be my forever home but we decide to move house and leave it behind? Where does that leave my sanity? Does any of this actually even mean anything when all is done? I suppose one way or another I will find out.
